I don't know if it's because I'm just raw after working more days in a row than I'm used to or knowing that I basically get screwed when I try to order things and the post office then screws with me.

I got a notice that Caitlin is available for pick up...TOMORROW morning!  I call the post office and ask if I can pick it up now, but no I got the whole "well it's still on the truck so you can't get it".  I'm sorry but what the fuck is that!?  If they had the package WHY NOT RING THE DOORBELL?  So great just great another fucking day of waiting and having to deal with the post office.  Fine whatever I want to spill blood cause I hate the new post office and how they do things.  At my old place they'd at least ring the doorbell to see if someone was home before they leave on of those slips.

I got my wigs from Jpop dolls.  Caitlin's wig is beautiful and will no doubt look cute when I actually get her.  The other wig I'm just pissed off.  The color on the website was stated as peach/white.  Well they failed to state what that actually meant.  Looking at the Monique BJD site, it's peach base with white highlights.  Now had that been stated I wouldn't have ordered the damn wig.  I wanted WHITE as in MILK WHITE so now I have a wig I don't want.  Great.  So now I have to go out and buy a new wig.  I should have just paid the $31 for the milk colored wig from LeekeWorld at Denver Doll, but no no no I wanted to try adn save money.

Hopefully I'll get the eyes and sunglasses tomorrow from Denver Doll and I'll pick up Caitlin.  The post office will hear about this horrible service.  IF you have something on the truck, ring the fucking doorbell once to see if someone is home rather than pull this shit all the time.  I want my doll and I want to know she's safe cause I have no idea how she was packed or if anything has been damaged.

Today will be a bad day at work for sure.  How the hell can it be good after this morning?  Back still hurts from working on Station B Saturday night, dealing with people on Station C has my nerves raw, still not getting days off I desperatly need, working my butt off to earn money that I don't really get to a whole lot of it with the bills, oh and home life is still hell.  Yeah I'm real happy now.

Okay impulse buying was something I swore I'd never do with BJDs and I have now failed miserably.  I been stalking a thread on DoA since the last part of April that was for a Volks Yo-SD Hinaichigo.  I gave in at the end of May and started a layaway and it's now going to be done as of tomorrow.  So I now have a doll on the way I had never planned on getting.  Well I had hoped against hope I would get my hands on a Hinaichigo and I got my wish.  After a nasty June this will be nice.  So I'm hoping I can put Caitlin's character to her as I just loved that character to death and wanted to explore her childhood more.  If not no big deal, but there will be some sadness. 

The next little impulse buy is gonna be a PukiPuki Loreley Mermaid full set as you cannot put a teeny mermaid doll in front of me with a mircophone and not have me think about Mermaid Melody and how cute it be to have baby Luchia around.  Oh yeah I'm just that weak XD.

I'll post pictures when my little one comes in.

Okay I am now offically pissed off at Junky Spot over this horrible experience.  I get they are busy, but you know shit some kind of word from them since I placed my order would be nice!  I placed my order, sent the money through paypal, seen the money clear, and not one damn word from them.  This is total shit.  When I ordered Rhiannon from them I got an order confirmation e-mail and a shipping e-mail with a tracking number and the order was placed on A SUNDAY AND THEY WERE FASTER THAN THEY ARE NOW!  I hate this cause I have no idea what is being done.  Shipping e-mail would be nice to have at this point cause I'm beyond pissed at this point.  You don't treat customers like this if you want return business.

I should have just placed the order for Adam through Denver Doll and waited the 5 weeks and gotten better customer service.  If he is not here come Thursday I'm raising hell on the JS forums cause this just isn't right when I spent a lot of money on this.

Okay it been two months since I posted here.  I swear I didn't realize it had been that long!  I'm all adjusted for the most part at work and been getting really nice paychecks which makes doll purchases possible.  It is going to slow down thanks to Acen being next month, but I will have gotten my major dolls needed for Ash's book tour in August.

Now that is totally different from what I had planned when I first started working.  Simi was ordered in late Feb and has been home for a little while.  I bought her with my first paycheck from Denver Doll and I couldn't be happier with my little demon.  It gave Rhiannon something to watch during my horrible neglect she has been at the end of since I started working.

On Wedensday I ordered Adam and his mold changed to the one I had been thinking about instead of the Hid mold.  The default face up on a Hid was something I just couldn't handle.  Not only was it the scar, it was how the eyebrows had been done.  Eyebrows not put on the natural curve of the head mold just irks me in face ups.  So I went with the new version of the Megi mold and bought him as a full set from Junky Spot, the same place I purchased Rhiannon from.  Only bad thing is I have not received any info on shipping.  Now this seems to be common for JS as of late and if this weekend comes without a delivery I will raise hell because I do not like being kept in the dark about a HUGE expensive purchase.  I ordered a wig and eyes I hope will look okay on a Megi and hoping the colors are right.  I asked the guy who created Adam if my memory is right and I really hope I'm right.  It just another reason why I hate the fact my laptop went to hell.

After he arrives home I will begin work on the Ash costume and later this week the eyes will be ordered.  The wig is another story, but I have ways of working around it and I can always place an order for the wig in June or July and still have it arrive in time for the tour.  I'm looking at a bunch of different ideas for possible wigs so that keeps me busy.  Simi's dress will have to be remade as I have no idea where it went.  What Rhiannon will wear is up in the air at this point.  Part of me wants to redo the Apollymi costume, but then again I don't.  I would love to do Ash's heroine, but that cuts things too close for me to make something in time for the signing.  I've thought of doing Ryssa, but I have too little description to work with.  I refuse to do Artemis.  So I'm not leaving myself a whole lot of choices.  But I have a couple months to work on things like this and something to keep me busy during the summer.

I'm hoping that come the end of July I will be able to order Maurya, then in September or October order Keegan and Luceria.  The purchase order is just up in the air because I really need to get my own computer.  So yeah just crazy things for me.

Okay had to write this cause this has Rhiannon all excited and me for that matter.  Come Thursday I start working which means money.  Yay!  So that means I can start saving up and buying dolls.  First one on the list is Adam.  While it'll be awhile to get him (stupid 50 day waiting period now T_T x 2), point is I'll be able to order him.  I'm hoping by end of March I can order Maurya and that makes me happy too ^^.  Things are looking more and more up and one of the nurses I be working with is really nice.  So five days of training got to work this Thursday through Sunday (sorta stinks, but it all with Carlessa and she's lots of fun ^^).  I think things are finally turning around.

Huge thankies to Starpunzel from Chitowndollz for this simple hat ideas for BJDs.  The last two days all I been making is hats and because it is only a simple knit stitch these are going really fast for me.  I put the link to the pattern on DoA and you do need an account to see the instructions and ideas.  Hopefully this weekend I will have pictures up.

http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?t=189906

Yeah okay I've had it with bad karma.  Thursday afternoon after having a rough time with running around, my laptop broke.  So what does that mean?  I lost a LOT of pictures, music, stories, just everything at this point.  There are some pictures I think I've lost for good so that's disappointing.  Stories I might never be able to recover some important files (both the actual story and the family history charts I had for story purposes) and so I just been down in the dumps about it for the last few days.  I'm hoping my friend's dad can recover most of the vital files so I don't feel this big of a lost over another laptop breaking down on me.  Needless to say this is the last laptop I am ever buying.  The next comp I'm buying is gonna be a desktop and I'm buying an external hard drive to back up all story and music and some picture files and some video files as well.  

Not too many people know I have doll website, but I do.  I have been trying for months to get it up and looking nice to hopefully get more visitors to it.  However it been taking forever.  Little things have to keep being updated which is fine I knew it was going to be work to maintain, but freewebs is getting on my nerves.  I chose that host because it is the easiest to use, but it goes down while I'm working a lot.  Summaries need to be done and they take a long time, but yet I go to save it and it times out on me.  I got done updating all of my dolls information on the "planned/dream dolls" page and either thanks to freewebs or my internet connection I will have to go back and redo all of it.  Oh the joys of it.  I think I might just get to bed and try in the morning.

Okay nasty rant I had to get out of the way.  Now nicer things.

Today I decided to make a couple outfits for my future Puki Piki using a Kelly doll I have around.  One is a nice white summer dress that will be nice for this summer and her first photoshoot.  The other is another white gown that looks similar to a christening gown.  So I'm being a dork about what the little one is gonna wear, but since not too many people know and few read this, the Piki is planned to be Rhiannon and Adam's daughter.  Right now I'm going back and forth on a few names.  The current choices are Maurya, Caitlin, Savannah, and a few more are gonna be added more than likely.  The front runner choice is Maurya as I got no idea why I like that name, but I do.  So back to the blessing dress, Rhiannon has no defined religion and as far as I know neither does Adam, but I know Rhiannon would want to have something like this done.  How she would even have the child is something I have yet to figure out (the VtM world rules are hard to get around).  But they will have a little girl as that is one of the things she desires more than anything.  I made a new sheet and a couple pillows for Rhiannon's bed as well.

Other non-doll related updates, I got really sick last week and I missed orientation for my new job.  It took about five days to go through the whole thing and lets just say vomiting blows big time and I do not miss it.  So now I have to wait until the 31st to go to the new orientation and start after that.  That translates into me losing three weeks worth of potential pay.  Oh yeah I'm not happy.  But it might not be too bad as it is giving me a little bit of time to relax and go through things (aka go through crap before family moves in spring and taking advantage I got a LOT of free time).

Let's see the Hyatt is offically pissing everyone off with Acen.  They got the dates, but they can't EXACTLY make up their mind about rates.  Idiots.  Many that would have stayed in the Hyatt have now gone to book in other hotels cause they are sick of this crap.  I'm slowly getting there myself.  End of January is not a good time to release rates.  Now yes it will get put up, but man oh man I want to make the reservation so it's off my mind.  Then I can shift to cosplay mode and get that done. 

Found out friend's wedding is on the same saturday as acen.  So I'm amazing super girl and going to go to the con, then slipping out for half the day on saturday to go to the wedding and go back to the con for the rest of the weekend.  One friend has said it's okay and she will gladly watch my babies while I'm at the wedding.  Cause if she doesn't watch them, there are only two choices.  One being leaving them in the room, something I REFUSE to do with hotel staff possibly going in my room despite a do not disturb sign.  Two being taking my babies with me and leaving them in a hot car for several hours.  I think leaving a friend to watch them is a MUCH BETTER choice.

I think that it for updates for now.  I got to get to bed.  I'm sleepy.

Yeah okay I know I can likely eat these words, but at this point I have stopped caring.  I joined Den of Angels (otherwise known as DoA) back when I first got into the serious mind set of buying a doll.  So I have seen many things and read things I just plain don't agree with and so far I have bit my tongue to avoid getting banned cause if it not nice to say that usually gets nasty and can result in a perament ban from the forum.  However there is no control over my LJ and I feel this has to get out as this annoys me about the online doll community.

The debate forum is something I have to come to avoid because of the somewhat close minded views in it.  One recent thread has covered how different users feel about doll drug use in photostories and general photos.  Now everyone is allowed their opinion, but ugh I can't stand what is said.  Some have been adult saying it bothers them and choose not to read it, fine.  Some share my view of that the dolls are characters in a story and sometimes there is drug or substance abuse.  Others this is the one I cannot stand.  They believe that by the author of the said story putting drug use in the story that is a reflection of the author's state of mind.

As a writer it is an insult to say such things.  These are CHARACTERS in a STORY that are NOT REAL!  That is like saying Rhiannon's sex drive is a direct reflection of my own.  Umm no she is far from it, but she is a character.  I know that in my mind.  Now yeah I could get over it laugh it off and blah blah blah, but I'm sick of comments like that from users/people/anyone else that is NOT a writer.  For years now I have written stories with characters that speak to me allowing me to write.  I don't care how it sounds to someone who does not write.  Even if they speak to me they are seperate from me.  They have their own stories, their own lives, that do not affect mine.  Yes there is part of them in me and me in a part of them, but that is all there is. 

A PART!  Why is that so hard to understand?

Needless to say this is just one of the last things I need to make me avoid the debate forum like the plague it is becoming.  Everyone has to agree or they get jumped on.  No one thinks to think before typing a response that might come off as an insult.  Making an over generalization about a group of people is unfair, but of course the mods don't dare step in.  This is why DoA needs to get over itself and most of the users do as well.  Not only cause of the debate forum, but due to the overwhelming whining that is becoming more and more on the site.  If newcomers to DoA and the overall doll community stumble across things, it's no wonder why some refuse or become turned off by the hobby.  A little more thinking before typing would go a LONG way.

/end rant

Okay this is really popular in the BJD community and after resisting for a year, I have finally made one.  Although this is mostly to spare my poor freewebs doll site from an over abundance of traffic and I can post photostories and pictures and all the other fun dollie stuff.  I'm sorry for the advertisements, but this allows me to do more stuff on here without having to pay up front.

I received my first BJD was a Doll-Zone Shoyo that I order through Junky Spot.  I named her Rhiannon after an rp character I have had in the past.  She was not supposed to be turned into a BJD, but I have little control over which character jumped out at me.  Rhiannon was a college graduation present from my mom.  Currently she is the only one I own, but I have plans for many others.

Now my planned dolls are as follows with a little background on them.  They will hopefully be ordered within the next year so Rhiannon is not lonely anymore.  I have listed them in order I'd like to get them, but yeah that can change....

Adam ~ Doll-Zone Hid.  His character is Rhiannon's lover and as such I feel I owe it to her to get him first so she is not alone anymore.  I am still having a debate about which male 44cm doll I will order from DZ as I can't quite make up my mind with his look.  He will probably be ordered the moment I get my CC paid off and a new computer.  So hopefully that will be March or April at the latest.

Simi ~ Orientdoll Vampire Ye.  She is being ordered for a surprise I have planned for Acheron's book tour come August of this year.  I am hoping she will be ordered by June at the latest July just so I know she will be here by the beginning of August.  I'd hate to have my surprise for Sherri go down the drain cause the post office is slow.

Piki ~ Fairyland Puki Piki.  A bit unplanned when she got on my list, but I am trying to do a surprise for Rhiannon that I will go into detail more as I post her enteries.  Plus Simi will have a "sister" that is about the same size as her.  Her name might change, I'm not sure.

Keegan and Luceria ~ Dream of Doll DoC Too and Bee-A.  These two are my first two romance characters of a book series I hope to get published.  Keegan is a character I have come to know and love in the last four years and he has come a long way in that time.  Luceria will hopefully be Keegan's balance and give him a reason to smile once more.

Seiya and Asuka ~ Dream of Doll DoT Camine and E-an.  I had to bestow an honor on these two characters.  They were my first characters from my first fan fic when I was 15.  Originally they were going to be my only SD sized dolls, but yeah I've already eaten those words.  I am hoping that these two will be able to finish their story once I have gotten them as dolls.  I hope that one day I will be able to get them a little one so they can have their little girl.

Marcia ~ Luts (soon to be Fairyland) Mini Fee Marcia.  She has no story at the moment.  I just love the mold and that her face has attidue and not a baby face like so many other MSD size range.

??? ~ Dream of Doll DoI Luke No. 2.  I'm sucker for his face much as I am with Marcia's.  Right now I have no idea who he will be.  I been thinking of a larger version of Keegan, but we shall see.

??? ~ Volks School B head on unknown body.  I love this headmold and there are only two ways to obtain it.  One is to attend a class in Kyoto, Japan at Volks' Tenshi no Sato.  Two is to buy it second hand.  I am planning on the second choice.  Now the body is a bit of a problem as I have to match the resin and that's not always easy.

??? ~ Volks Full Choice System MSD.  She has no name as I would need to see her first.  I was going to settle on a Myu when I first got into BJDs, but the moment I found out about the FCS option that was when I stopped wanting that little one.  The head I chose is of Nasia and she's just Myu with optional ears.  Her details are below

Skinton:  Normal
Headmold: F-11 (Nasia)
Wig: W-74 Tate Roll Long (FCS Only Wig) in either 12 or 16T color
Eyes: Either GE-12 or GE-21
Eyelashes: WT-6-Black (probably, not sure)
Ears:  E-03 (short elf ears)*
Makeup: M-04 (order/custom make up.  I will get pictures of what I like soon)
Body: B-04 MSD Girl, S-bust, Jointed, Suwarikko
Arms/Hands:  A-01 and H-05
Legs/Feet:  L-03 MSD Suwarikko Leg and FO-01

I think that covers everything with the dolls for now.  Any questions just ask ^^